Jul 15Fanny Pack RevisitedSince moving to California, I’ve tried three separate times to find a therapist who meets my needs. I didn’t walk into that quest thinking it would be easy to find a therapist who claimed to be trauma informed and actually managed to clear that bar. Finding a queer affirming therapist…6 min read6 min read
Apr 22Butt Hair- Monologue Performed by Hawke WoodMy piece Butt Hair — Transition Updates at Six Months was recently performed and recorded by Hawke Wood for This Isn’t Even My Final Form. This Isn’t Even My Final Form didn’t quite make it to a final product, I still adore the work that Hawke did here and am deeply honored by the work they put in to make this happen. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LuzK8EFfO1A Here’s the link to the original piece.Transgender1 min readTransgender1 min read
Apr 15We Need to Talk about the MarstonsAround the time I was thirteen, my family was active in the closest thing to a mega church my small town had to offer. It was a First Baptist, one of dozens in the area, and was led by a pastor who had been Baptist when he was hired by…Right Wing5 min readRight Wing5 min read
Mar 30I’ve Lived in the Society the Right Wants. It Won’t Keep Their Kids from Voting for the Left.When I talk about my religious trauma, most people assume I’m referring to something that happened in my church, and to be fair, that’s at least half right. I spent a lot of my childhood in the church going to Sunday services, Wednesday services, Bible school, choir practices, revivals, you…LGBTQ6 min readLGBTQ6 min read
Mar 1518 Month Testosterone UpdateBefore I started testosterone everyone told me I would be angry. Everyone said that it would squash all other emotions, make me incapable of crying, and leave me a rage hulk the likes of which I’d never seen. They were right. …LGBTQ4 min readLGBTQ4 min read
Feb 28EggshellsGrowing up in an abusive home is sort of like constantly playing a game of the floor is lava, only it’s eggshells you’re diving for sofas and pillows about instead of magma. They’re everywhere, in the car on the way to school, under the dinner table, in the bathtub, in…PTSD7 min readPTSD7 min read
Feb 15PassingAs far as crippling disorders go, I feel extraordinarily lucky to have dysphoria that manifests chiefly as dissociation. Don’t get me wrong, there’s no good version of dysphoria, but at this point not having a consciousness that feels seated in my body is less a problem and more a fact…LGBTQ5 min readLGBTQ5 min read
Jan 15Crash at the Crush: Ninety Days in Work HellIn 1896 William Crush had a beautiful, horrible idea. It was the kind of idea that took into account human nature and monetized it almost perfectly. There were always spectators at train wrecks. If you’ve ever had a commute on a busy highway, you know why. We’ve all been stuck…Work8 min readWork8 min read
Dec 30, 2022A New Year’s Blessing: 2023You’ve made it. Once again, in an era too likely to be in history books, here at the beginning, here at the end, you’ve made it through another year. Not without struggle, not without loss, not without the sacrifice of things you’d held dear. …New Year3 min readNew Year3 min read
Dec 15, 2022The Living Christmas TreeEvery year, around this time, someone asks me why I hate Christmas music, usually as I stuff earplugs in and layer headphones blasting podcasts over that. I try not to be a spoil sport. I try to hear as little of it as possible while simultaneously letting other people have…Mental Health6 min readMental Health6 min read
